Yes, I realize it’s Tuesday but this is about Friday.
Friday was a great day. Bunny had school and I had parent-teacher conferences. But to gods of sign-ups had smiled on me and I only had three conferences on Friday! I did the conferences, was the “parent reader” in Bunny’s class and then got in my car and left school!
First stop, chez Frick to check out the Fricklet who was sleeping peacefully. I took my Cicada Mary* socks with me to knit on while we chatted. After a nice chat I realized I had stopped knitting part way through the visit… Next, lunch, all by myself!
Brief diversion alert: When I was a graduate student I craved time with other people. Despite being in education there was a whole lot of time spent alone. I used to look forward to meetings! Now that I am a teacher and mother I find I crave time alone. Time when I make all the decisions just for me!
While eating I thought a lot about knitting and why I seemed to not be enjoying it. I decided I would spend the rest of the afternoon knitting on my Secret of the Stole thinking that if I made significant progress I would feel good about my knitting. Home I went, popped in the Grey’s Anatomy Season Two DVD that had been delivered from Blockbuster quite a while ago, and started knitting.
Three episodes later there was slightly more stole, but I realized again I had stopped knitting part way through… The drive to school to get Bunny gave me time to think. What was my problem? Why did I not enjoy knitting? I realized the answer, one word, stress… ok two words, stress and prizes.
See, when I started Secret of the Stole I set a goal for myself to keep up with the clues. By Friday I was behind and it was clear I would not be in the running for the first progress prize. Do I need the prize? Of course not, but just the same I felt like I was not living up to expectations. They were my expecations, but all the same they weren’t being met and I was stressing about it.
Friday evening I cast on and knit an entire mini sock. Cousin Mel and I are thinking about making them for holiday gifts. I will knit the tiny socks and she will bead tops to make ornaments. The last of the Grey’s episodes on the DVD and I had a tiny sock. And I had enjoyed it!
The stole is resting, I will come back to it when there are no personal expectations about it. I spent the week-end working on my Cicada Mary* socks and even taught myself Norwegian purl! You know what, knitting is cool!
I guess this was a story of mojo, lost and found. If you have one, head over to HollYarns, enter, and let her know I sent you!
*The Cicada Mary socks are the Bloody Mary socks knit in the Cicada colorway from the Yarn Pirate.